Archive for November, 2007

Give cheerfully, cheerfully given back…

Sunday, November 18th, 2007

(I’m sorry, this blog isn’t meant to be understood.)

Balance : Roughly Forty Hundred.

Seems a lot, but Thirty Hundred belongs not to me.

So true balance is Ten Hundred….

To survive for 6 more months with it seems impossible, or I’ll have to go with maggi (without eggs) daily.

Cash Debit / Bank Credit : Thirty Ten (for shelter)

Cash Credit : Five Ten (for tithe, extra given cheerfully)

How to be cheerful when you are figuring out how to put things together? I don’t know. I was still up and about supplying my own needs and blessing others. And accept the red bag cheerfully while seated on the green chair.

Cash Credit : XX Car problem.

Sick of it… Then.

Cash Debit : Five Ten (unexpected project fund)

Cash Debit : Seventy Ten (wages of sitting around !)

Wa… so happy.

Cash Credit : Ten Ten !! (red bag, more than I cared. Cheerfully. God never shortchange me, nor does He need any of mine. But all that is mine is a providence from Him)

Cash Debit : Another Fifty Ten (that was hidden. Unfound one week ago but now appeared)

Cash Debit : Another Twenty Ten (unexpected Ball.i hol fund)

I was quite worried initially because all that I have is truly a.l.l. that I have. 1k plus, what can be done. I don’t have PTPTN like others, and my Shell had stopped. Yea, I never mark my usages, but I don’t think I spend it foolishly? Or did I…

Financial headache.

But hey, hehe, this is a testimony and reminder to myself that ‘When we give to .,we dont get poorer’. I… got more cash debit than I dared ask for! Time to churn it into further investment or assests. Thank you Jah Jireh.

Pride Issue

Thursday, November 8th, 2007

Friends and whoever reading this… I don’t write to please. I write what’s inside of me… Thanks for bearing with me, cocky externally and prideful internally.

I am Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I’m right
I swear I knew it all along

And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself

Excuses, defenses leading to nowehere.

Dashboard Confession expressed it.

Breathe on me, and change me Lord.