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My dear good friend + sis.

I thought I had forgiven the matter.

You might not have the slightest idea how much your action that particular day had cut my heart so deeply. When you suddenly turned around and walked away, left me wondering what the *k is wrong with you.

We have work to do. Vision to fulfil.

Then I felt that I am so disgusted with the mere sight of you. (Woh… Alexis serious??) And I realized that I harboured hatred inside, and yes… I quickly seeked God to teach me to be able to let go and forgive you.

As time goes by… In your own special and sweet way, you were building back the bridge that was broken. Outwardly it wont take much effort coz I responded well, as if nothing happens.

Til a point, I praise God that I was able to like you again. So I thought I successfully able to get out of my own chains of past hurt.

No… forgiveness also means putting hope once again, and subject myself to the possiblity of getting hurt again. The same setting is about to appear again, and I find that I lack of faith. I find that this past tense story resurfaced again. Can I prove my forgiveness by putting hope once again?

I find that it is so hard to move myself, especially the heart that is heavy coz the heart is afraid that you will turn around again.

Lolz… If you turn around, I tell u, I am going to kick your ass.

O Lord God…

Many times we break our promises. Many times when You wanted us to go with You, we turned around and ran away. Many times we let you down. It must have really sadden You. But You still forgive us again and again, accept us again, hope in us again. Teach me this lesson of forgiveness and putting hopes again. Teach me to walk right.

Mission note -

We all agreed to say we are going out with her. Have you got access to mission ground? Upon arriving home, all lights are off and follow instructions as discussed before. The aim is to have the cake on the table. When you see it, please shout happily.  Reply if you receive and understand this message. Signal us when you are on the way back.

To Agent Yoke. From Commanders Jenny and Joan.

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Joan : We wanna celebrate Huey Yoke’s birthday tonight after she come back from fellowship.

Al     : Haaah? So early !

Joan : Aiya, her actual day is booked by James edi. Furthermore, today is her chinese birthday.

Al     : Count me in !

Joan : Think of how to surprise her or ’sabo’ her.

Al     : Sure (evil laugh).

Sabo –> sabotage. Something we do to surprise or make fun of others, esp during birthdays. HUSC branded me as Queen of Sabo.

So I arrived at A1108 around 10.30pm to brainstorm with Jenny and gang on how to go about making Huey Yoke’s birthday an unforgetable one. We agreed to tell Yoke that we all go out for supper, made sure that she brought her keys (access).

The plan is to have the whole house in complete silence as if nobody’s home. And also complete darkness except a blinking powerpoint directing her to check out a ‘Treasure in the Fridge’ - the cake. Huey Yoke’s housemates predicted confidently that she will shouted excitedly when she sees the cake. Joan will hide behind the curtain to film every single move. Haha! Well planned, A1108!

Here they are, celebrating Huey Yoke’s very be-earlied birthday and kinda forgotten that mine had passed not too long ago, unnoticed? Not that I expected anything, neither did I mind. But I caught myself wondering how come A1108 had shown zero expression? They are not like this last time. Had clinical and final year stress took away the warmth and fun from them? Kinda worried, so I prayed for them. Glad that they resumed and planning for Huey Yoke!

Ah! So Huey Yoke signaled and we all got into position. Pik San woke up. Foong Yee stopped playing computer games. Lights and fan all off, so Joan keep saying very hot very hot.

As predicted, the first thing Huey Yoke did was to switch on the lights. Not before she saw the blinking msg tho. So she went to the fridge and … from our hiding place, can hear her exclaiming "Wei!!!!!! Ni men !!!!!!!" We came out and wished her happy birthday.

Excited exchange of conversations. ie How did you know my chinese birthday? , Happy Birthday Da Shao! (from Joan), Are you happy? yes, I am. Are you surprised? YES.

Wow, the cake. It’s a chocolate cake with personal modification, A1108 style. Got biscuit la, got nuts la, got Ferrero Rocher la, and also a personalized piece of HY on top. Nice! Can see their peluh hati in preparing.

Song time. We sang Happy Birthday to you, Happy Birthday to you, Happy Birthday to … .

ALEXIS (same time peeling off HY’s tag, revealing ‘aL’ on the cake)!!!

Oh my gosh… I quickly glanced around and indeed, Joan Jenny Pik San Foong Yee Yun Zi Tze Wei are no longer looking at Huey Yoke, but I was in the spotlight, pretty much uncomfortable. Blood flush to my face and head. Adrenaline pumping. Kidding me! A1108 had been planning this on me ALL THESE WHILE… Feelings? Very touched lar, surprised lar, pai seh lar, and totally humbled by the love that A1108 showered on me. That moment was surreal.

It was all planned. The first ignorance. The tests. The observations. The invitations. The surprises. It wasn’t Huey Yoke’s chinese birthday at all (Huey Yoke said, I dun even know when is it!). To top it all, A1108 cooked longevity noodles and presented me with a Photo Album with testimonials. Sememangnya A1108 standard!

A1108, you are the Sabo Team attached with love. From the depths of my heart, thank you for your friendshipS. It is cherished dearly. Dang, you girls so happy and satisfied to successfully pull a practical joke on me 3rd time! (Movie, flower and now).

HUSC, you younger generations brought new meaning to Sabo too. I’ve seen how ya all performed as I watched from the side =)

I hereby announce my resignation as Sabo Queen =)

(….on second thoughts…..)

TEMPORARILY. You all just beware. Muahahahaha (evil laugh).