Archive for November, 2006

Stared Fear in the Eyes

Thursday, November 23rd, 2006

Everytime our car pulls up in front of my uncle’s house in Sandakan, my brothers and I will hesitate to get out of the car until we make sure that those massive dogs are safely locked in their cages.

     Canines… scientific name for dogs. I am always a dogs-lover (detest cats). To me, dogs are smart, teachable, appreciative, loyal and alright… until they think that you are an enemy.

     So I was wandering inside the house as the adults chatted. It is a big house with a lot of nooks and corners and interesting areas. After bored of exploring inside, I came to the back door and saw the trees and orchard.

     ‘Oh my, let’s go find some mangosteen!’ I thought to myself. I quickly assessed that the dogs were locked in. I slipped on a pair of slippers and slowly hike up nature’s pathway. Slowly and enjoying myself.

     About 5 yards upwards from my door of safety, suddenly I heard barkings of a few ferocious dogs, then dang! I saw their full bodies emerging from somewhere below and double dang! They are heading up my way!! They were unleashed and unlocked! I quickly shouted

       ‘Hey, hey!!! I am still outside!!!!!!!!’ Big puppies charging upwards, barking fierce!   

       ‘BAABEEEEEE !!!!!’ I called my dad. Of course, nobody heard nothing…

        In less than 10 seconds, I am surrounded by 3 big ones. My heart was screaming ‘Don’t pound on me or bite me!! Don’t amputate me!!’ I was always okay with dogs. I can coo, make friends and even lead others away from a fierce dog. Not today.

        One eye contact set them barking with greater intensity. These dudes ain’t calm! And they were serious about not letting me get away, I saw the bare canines and lethal eyes. I’m deadmeat.

         Then my worst worry came true… Here comes the largest one of all, a handsome mastiff. ‘Hey hey, I recognize you… Ding Dong’ It slowly, like a boss, made it’s way towards me.

The ‘fearless’ Alexis finally admit … This is fear factor. My feet were literally shaking with total helplessness as I commanded my body not to make a single move. Not even to loose balance or to breathe deeply. Ding Dong wasn’t barking, which I am truly grateful. But he directed his big head and flabby nose to my legs and feet. Don’t take a bite… Don’t pound on me… I know if Ding Dong stand on it’s hind legs, he’s easily taller than I am.

       I raised my hands like a criminal showing that I am hiding nothing. But every single action triggers more barks from the other biggies. ‘No sudden action…’ I told myself. O God… help me. I started to pray… not to be sniffed, not to be bitten and chewed on, not to be attacked nor pounded on… okay, all these I am protected.

       I resisted several temptations to just shout for help loudly. I think if I do, this will startle the dogs and I will lose my neck. Ping! Headline tomorrow.

       I looked around, in case they wanna have a piece of me, I will climb to that tree nearby. A short movement of head caused the dogs to bark bark bark more. I continued to pray… Lord, have them shut up. The barking slowly diminished. but I still dare not move on my weakened legs, for the canines are still surrounding me, dunno what for!

Okay, Lord. Please get me out of here. Either auntie yells ‘Lunch time, doggies!!’ or the adults realize I’m missing and come to my rescue or anything.

        Man, I was standing there for about 5-10 minutes, I have no idea for it seems hours to me. Then, the dogs lost interest in me, and one by one left me alone. I thanked God and moved slowly. 1 step… 2 steps… BARK BARK!! A big one was eyeing me far off. When they weren’t looking, 1 step and at time, I returned indoors to safety.

         Gwash, so close to being injured! Imagine school reopens and the news being spread around is ‘Alexis lost an arm, bcame lunch for some big dogs’. I knew I made the right moves. I hope ya all know how to act in the faces of fierce canines…

         Mom later told me, a stray dog entered the compound and got ripped apart by these foursome… Yikes! At least I am still in 1 piece, maybe lately because I am watching 1 piece cartoon. Praise the Lord.

Carry Me

Thursday, November 16th, 2006

So carry me
I’m just a dead man lying on the carpet
Can’t find a heartbeat…

Make me breathe
I want to be a new man tired of the old one
Out with the old plan…

Can you find a beat inside of me?
Any pulse? Getting worse?
Any pulse? Getting worse?
Inside of me, can you find a beat?

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Good Samaritan

Sunday, November 5th, 2006

A Jewish man was traveling on a trip from Jerusalem to Jericho, and he was attacked by bandits. They stripped him of his clothes, beat him up, and left him half dead beside the road.

“By chance a priest came along. But when he saw the man lying there, he crossed to the other side of the road and passed him by. A Temple assistant walked over and looked at him lying there, but he also passed by on the other side.

“Then a despised Samaritan came along, and when he saw the man, he felt compassion for him. Going over to him, the Samaritan soothed his wounds with olive oil and wine and bandaged them. Then he put the man on his own donkey and took him to an inn, where he took care of him. The next day he handed the innkeeper two silver coins, telling him, ‘Take care of this man. If his bill runs higher than this, I’ll pay you the next time I’m here.’

“Now which of these three would you say was a neighbor to the man who was attacked by bandits?” Jesus asked.

His listener replied, “The one who showed him mercy.”

   Then Jesus said, “Yes, now go and do the same."

Luke 10.30-37

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I failed the test of Good Samaritan.

I walked on by.

Rollercoaster Ride

Friday, November 3rd, 2006

How come ?

I’m actually trying to express something here but I can’t put my thoughts and feelings into words. I have these symptoms… many days d..

Stop the self-pity. We don’t have all day…

Stop complaining…

Stop the gloom… It’s neither helpful to you nor to me

Smile… eventho there are tears in your eyes

Laugh at yourself… You haven’t seen the worst (which is not happening to yourself anyway)

Life is a roller-coaster. Just take the ride and scream exhilaratingly. Who would board a roller-coaster and gloom when the car is taking a plunge? Know for sure that it will swoosh back up again, innit? And why wanna hide in fear as the coaster run its path? Put your hands up and scream and have fun! When life is down, it’s ok to cry. But learn from mistake, not the self-pity. We should embrace life and look forward. Look… Forward. The word ‘down’ is created with an antonym. ‘Up’ will come.

            However there is a difference between rollercoaster and life. Roller coasters, after a ride, you can disembark, queue again and board again. Life? You only got ONE. One shot. One opportunity.

Unmet expectations leads to disappointment. I am disappointed today.

Fulfilled expectations leads to contentment. I am contended this week.

            Scores for CONS

            PROS dentures issued

            PERIO finished E&D plus scaling

            STL presented

Surpassed expectations leads to joy. I am filled with joy today.

I simply thank God for everything, good and bad. I’m on a roller-coaster ride

Expressed on 3 Nov

Crossing paths

Wednesday, November 1st, 2006

I saw no likeness to Him in you today.

And since I shall not pass your way again,

It matters not that yesterday His light shone in you,

Or that tomorrow you may want to make amends.

I passed your way today.

- JoanDeems -

The keyword is TODAY. Have you made it count?